Step Five: “Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.”
The thought of admitting our wrongs to another person often brings fear of judgment or rejection. For Type 1s, this step can feel especially daunting because of their fear of being wrong or imperfect. Many resist admitting their wrongs out of a desire to maintain their integrity and avoid criticism. However, through Step Five, Type 1s discover that true growth comes from acknowledging their humanity and imperfections. This step offers freedom from the burden of self-criticism and opens the door to grace, acceptance, and deeper connections.
Remember, it’s natural to feel scared. You are not alone. The fear is temporary, and by trusting the process, you’ll experience relief, healing, and freedom.
Sponsors guide us through Step Five by helping us uncover behaviors that keep us stuck, harm our well-being, and negatively impact our relationships. For Type 1s, these patterns often include perfectionism, self-righteousness, harsh self-criticism, and over-controlling tendencies.
Preparing for Step 5
- Ask your Higher Power for the courage, honesty, and willingness this step requires.
- Read common Type 1 character defenses included in the list and leftmost column of the Example Defenses Inventory (below).
- Reflect on the work you have done in Steps 1-4, notice any defenses (also known as patterns of behavior that cause problems in our relationships and life). No need to write them down, just ask yourself which ones show up as your sponsor will help you create your own Defenses Inventory?
- Your sponsor will help you create your own Defenses Inventory when you share your Step 4.
- Send the Step 5 Guide for Sponsors to your sponsor trust that your sponsor will ensure that you get through Step 5 together and that your sponsor will hold all the information you share in confidence.
- Make an appointment with your sponsor to complete this step.
You can use some of these examples to create your own Defense Form.
Click here to download Defense Form Examples with blanks.
Type 1 – EXAMPLE DEFENSE FORM
Some common Type 1 defenses are: Anger Repression, Black-and-White Thinking, Denial of Imperfection, Dichotomous Thinking, Displacement, Hypercriticism, Idealism, Judgmental, Moralism, Projection, Reaction Formation, Self-Restraint, Suppression, Unrealistic Expectations, Virtuousness.
| Defenses of Character | How It Shows Up in My Life | How It Harms Me | How It Harms Others |
|---|---|---|---|
| Perfectionism | I strive to meet impossible standards and criticize myself when I fall short. | I feel anxious, overwhelmed, and never good enough. | Others feel judged or inadequate around me. |
| Self-Righteousness | I believe my way is the right way and resist others’ perspectives. | I feel isolated and disconnected from others. | Others feel criticized or dismissed. |
| Self-Criticism | I constantly replay mistakes in my mind and berate myself for them. | I feel drained, stuck, and unworthy. | Others may feel uncomfortable with my self-judgment. |
| Over-Control | I try to manage every detail to ensure perfection. | I feel stressed and unable to let go. | Others feel micromanaged or stifled. |
| Intolerance | I struggle to accept others’ flaws or mistakes. | I feel frustrated and alienated. | Others feel judged or unaccepted. |
| Impatience | I become frustrated when things don’t go as planned. | I feel tense and irritable. | Others feel rushed or undervalued. |
| Rigidity | I resist change and insist on sticking to rules or routines. | I feel inflexible and stuck in my ways. | Others feel constrained or unsupported in their choices. |
| Resentment | I hold onto anger when things aren’t done “right.” | I feel bitter and unable to move forward. | Others feel unfairly blamed or criticized. |
| Fear of Failure | I avoid risks or trying new things to avoid making mistakes. | I feel stuck and miss opportunities for growth. | Others feel frustrated by my hesitancy or lack of initiative. |
Summary
For Type 1s, working Step 5 involves identifying how their need for perfection, control, and self-criticism harm their lives and relationships. By being honest, vulnerable, and open to feedback, Type 1s can release their fear of being wrong and embrace the grace found in self-acceptance. You have taken a vital step on your recovery journey. Take a moment to celebrate your progress.